If Only...If..

If only I could make things better with my words..

then a lot of things should be better by now

but I'm suddenly beginning to realize..

that words are so very dangerous,

especially at critical points of someones(other than urselves) life.

Your words may be warming and soothing to hear by one person

yet it can turn into a fatal time bomb about to turn off for the other.

It may work wonders and work things out

or just turn everything upside down and totally backfire

no matter how sincere you were saying them.

The price of getting involved in something

other than your own business is always always a lil' pricey.

Its a risk worth taken if you really believe in it.

Its not that I want to butt in..

As if I have nothing better to do

than think about someone else

when I myself have my own numbers to figure out.

Its just that sometimes,I feel the need to speakout

when one can't seem to find their words.

Mine maybe a little bit harsher,

yet it may also be realistic and though it might be hard to accept

but it's the truth and nothing but the truth 'So help me God'.

Or atleast its genuinely and honestly what I think

(which isnt owez right).

Are you a good friend or are you a true friend?

Do you 'Bail them out of jail' or..

are you sitting right next to them in there saying

"That was fun!! But lets not do THAT again!!"

These are the things we must decide to be

if not early in life than later on in life.

I miss my friends from highschool.

The kinds who babble all the way to class

on how bad it is for you to make people wait

but would still do it for you and go to school together

no matter how late you were

and how they had to miss their breakfast because of you.

To enter some lame hockey club

just so that you could be together.

The kind that would turn themselves up

when getting caught escaping during prep hours

when actually u urself are hiding behind the door.

You would proudly be known being friends with them

eventhough people are talking bad things behind their back,

you aren't afraid of ruinning your reputation.

But I also agree that times have changed,

and now its time to be an adult and live the name.

But don't you just long for it?

Those ppl who won't just simply listen to your story

and say 'Really???', ' Yekeee?' ,'Alaa tak patotlaaa' ,'Cian nye ko',

and make these sympathetic expressions..

yet does nothing in reality,but they take real action and move as a unit.

Maybe coz during that 'era',we have time to lavish and waste on eachother.

A lil' childish..a lil' dramatic..but fun and charming.

True friends mature together,grow old together.

A real girlfriend would go into battle

with another girlfriends enemy for her when she's not up for it,

when she's down and injured.

She would put on her brave face and fight

but still be rational about it at the same time.

But there are certain choices that are so hard to make

that may determine what type of girlfriend you are.

Do you tell a gf something that might ruin your realtionship

with them or even theirs with someone else?

Do you get involve in their fight when you could jepordize their happiness

by telling them the truth?

Should a relationship be based on white lies and hypocrocy?

Org melayu are known for their 'Jage tepi kain org'

but then they don't even realise when their neighbours

are being 'robbed' just next door.

SO does that mean it's a bad thing to care?

What IS caring for one another?

How to know when enough is enough?

I don't get it.

I don't understand.

Whats right and whats wrong?


There aren't any blue prints for this.

No black and white.


If only words are just simply powerful words.

If only switching off the air-conditionning of the car or the classroom

can stop the Artic from melting..would be so awesome.

If only giving a beggar the quarter they're asking for

can keep them feeling full throughout the day,

prevent them living a harsh life

and help them to improve their lifestyle

would absolutely be very heart warming.

If only voting for your leaders would make the world..

or even our country..a better place to live in,

'clean' from all types of 'filth'

than it would be the biggest honor to do so..

If only saying 'I love you' to a loved one

could take any suspicion or doubt away from them..

than everyone in this world would have their own..

'Happily Ever After'..

If only 'IF' was something for sure.