New Years..

Wow..2008..I feel so ancient :p aging is a scary thing..not coz ur one step closer to death (who knows wen Big D will coming knocking on ur door!!)but coz one day ur this troubled teen with trivial problems and suddenly u come to realize u have all this burden of responsibility on ur shoulders.Ur finally on the way to becoming an adult.GEee...

U also realize what a dumbass u've been all this while..I feel sad for all the mess I've made in the past,n I know I'm bound to either repeat some or create new mistakes in the future.What exactly have I learned these past 2 decades of my life? I guess number one is to NEVER EVER listen to that small evil voice in ur head telling U its alright and its ok to do bad things.U need to take a step back n look at what ur about to decide.Be rational.Really do think about ur loved ones..

I think along the way I've lost and found myself again a few couple of times.And from all this I've come to learn a lot about myself.That;

1. I have no idea who i am n who I'm turning into
2. I can't make decisions on my own im so cacat n incapable in that area.
3. I'm impatient and easily annoyed.
4. I'm a selfish bitch who wants everyone to like her.
5. Feels so inferio and self-concious that I suffocate my bf with stupid low-self-esteem Q's
6. I blame myself alot of times for alot of things which I guess is related to me anyhow.
7. I'm hopless in love and friendship
8. I'm....I'm...helplessly human (n here I thought I was some superhuman woman hero)
   

I hate my lalang personality..Its ruining my life.I'm so amazed how Yeh puts up with me and my airhead attitude..Im amazed how anyone puts up with me.Thanx.Even if ur just pretending.Ngah3......